Woke up super weird-feeling. Like paralyzed and woozy. Need to use sleep apnea machine!!!
Yesterday, Clover asked me to stop saying I hate myself, so it was a big day.
I’m taking it to heart. I can’t ignore this request. She’s only 7 and a half; she’s made relatively few requests in her life (I’m sure her parents would disagree) due to it being not very very long yet, so I feel like I should listen. That’s not really the reason I listen. I think I listen because it is coming from a place that is real. I was also sorry to model something bad. I realized it and tried to take it back. I’m glad she corrected me actually. I feel like kid judy would have let someone say that and internalized it for later.
Today I need to find a mason jar to be a house for a fish. I got the red one that was the most active yesterday at the fish store. He is still alive today. A promising sign. I do not hate him, so I don’t have to hate myself. That makes no sense. I’m just practicing.
Then I need to decide what will grow from being fed by the fish poop. A short-rooted plant is recommended, like lettuce or … sage I believe. We have so much sage though.
Maybe one of the little herb starters from the Double Union herb workshop that Dash grew from seeds, but I’d have to (extremely gently) pull them out of the soil and put them in the aquaponic stuff. Or maybe I’ll start from seeds like the kit instructions say and use some of these “Rocky Top Lettuce” seeds i got from a store on 24th in like 2013.
OMG we forgot Ewok Wednesday last week! It’s okay, there is a Wednesday coming up soon. It’ll be Ewok before we know it.
